The Presence

I remember saying to D last Sunday that it’s been a long while since we worship together as a Choir. I always took time in CC to gather the people in worship in preparation to minister on stage. God presence always comes… and I know it’s truly His Mercy and His Grace. Yesterday in the prac, B just took some time to worship together with the people attending the prac. It’s Heavenly!!! Thank you God for coming to meet us and minister to us!

There are so many a times that we are just busy ministering, and this is one that you just put away everything and be ministered. The Presence came so strong when B say “Listen to this: Your love, Surrounded me from the start, I never want to be apart, from You ever again"…. I just fell and wept and wept and wept…..

I think I’m one Lazy boi…

Why so? I realize that I’m person who dun like to walk too much in the office. As my office space is not very big from one another, I roll across the room sitting on my wheely chair to get or put something… hahahha… One push and I reach the other corner… Awesome ay… heheh…

My companion for these 2 days is my Trustee Skittles … hahhaha… he’s tasty, yummy, filled with fruity freshness, you just continue putting him in your mouth….
And I got a picture of him too… hehehe





What are you thinking??? Hehhe…

I Kapo my bro’s Ipod as his camp do not allow him to bring it in, so I stuck music to my ears wherever I go… hahhaha.. Sun’s Songs from the new album EMBRACE accompanied me through most of the times.. her melodious voice reached out towards the soul of man and lift them up. The lyrics are so beautifully written and really help to bring comfort to those who listen and listen closely.

Call me Zom Zom…

I one freaking walking zombie …. In lack of oxygen, my face is tensed up and tight like one who just went for Botox.. Hahahaha…. My whole body is numb….. Numb numb….

Yesterday NT bought durians and placed it in the fridge… the “fragrance” lingers in the frigde… when I’m having my breakfast from the fridge, My Chipsmore Cookies and Sara Lee Chocolate Swirl Sponge Cake, each bite contains a taste of Durian…. Imagine this… Durian with Chocolaty Taste.. and/or Chocolate with Duriany Taste…. A little turn off hor… : S

Wow wow wow....

Normally the morning rush is madness... but surprisingly, I get to sit down from AMK to Cityhall, then City hall to Lavender... isn't it amazing??? heheheh.....

But one sad thing....
I'll be attending a wake tonight. My Ex-CGL's dad passed away yesterday... So ya, me and some Ex-CG members, and the ICs will be there tonight....

Happy Boi again... heheheh

I’m so ready to be home and stay at home for most of my free time wef yesterday… hahhaha… why??? Cos I gotten cable at last!!! Yeah…..

Cartoon Network, Disney Channel, AXN.. so on and so forth… hahaha…… Isn’t is amazing??? I’m so going to be a couch potato …. Hahahhaha…. I will not wanna get Fat… so I will still go for my swim (cross fingers) and hopefully gym… hehehhe… So Couchy… Here I come… (after my swim if it didn’t rain) heheheh….

Monday, April 9 2007

It's my Mama's Birthday!!!

I specially took leave to spend this wonderful day with her... hehehe... this day is filled with a mission... to eat and to eat... hahahha...

We set off at noon time, after a good sufficient rest, heheh.... We head down Chinatown to eat the Soy Chicken... we ordered chicken for 2, a Xia Jiao Soup, 1 rice and 1 noodle... and surprisingly, the bill come up to only S$9/= Wow... we then took a train to VIVO to shop around...

We then confirm the dinner location with my bro , Lx, Gr and many others... we head down Plaza Singapura and settle at Manhattan Fish... but while waiting for them.... we are famished.. heheh... So we grab a Chilli-Cheese Fries from Carl's Junior... hehehhe....

The Dinner was superb at Manhattan!!!

Piss...

can't believe i spend time waiting for nothing....
Piss.... no movie.. no show... nothing.....

I Got Involved in an Car Accident today . . .

After a Movie Show “300” which ends at 11 last night, Z decides to send me home with his precious car. But when we reach his block, his brother actually drove it out for supper. So we can only wait for him to come back . . . An hour pass . . . consider driving from Bedok to Tampines is a little long hor. (“,)

When he comes back, we immediately hop into the car and took off PIE and CTE and Back home at AMK. When we are turning right at the cross junction, we did not see any cars in sight . . . and me and my BIG MOUTH … I just say “Turn Lah” and it took him a long while to react. . . can’t blame him, he can be easily distracted, and a Taxi come screeching at my side and bump . . . Thank God it’s only the Front that was slightly dented.

Time Check: 1am in the Morning! Hai.........

Supposedly Sick....


Heheheh... I was at home... suppose to rest.. but somehow, i just could not fall asleep.... Mama bought Ang Ku Kuey from the AMK Nonya Kuey stall at Hougang that was shown on TV yesterday.... Actually not bad wor... only 30cents each... hahaha....

Supposedly an Alone NIght...

I so wanted to go take a plunge in the waters today... all by myself... hahaha... But Aud wanna shop at the new Korean Shopping Mall Square 2 at Novena.. Well.. i had not stepped into the back part of Novena Sq, so i'm not very sure where the place is.... Her persuasive words entices me to go with her and Jo to do some shopping... Without a clue of the exact location, we just walk out of Novena Station.... Hmm.... Novena Sq, Novena Velocity...... step out... Dun have leh.... we cross the road, and once again... and are we there yet???? United Square.... Noooo.....

So we ask the Information Counter guy and he say "at the back of Novena Square, near Tan Tock Seng".... hahahha... OUr Cukooness was written all over our face... The walking makes the girls hungry.. hahahha.... Walk and walk and Walk..... and Tadang... Square 2.... nice place... hehhe... the food court looks good... but a bowl of Snow Ice Fruit Mix is 5.80 wor... mad.. hahah.... so i chose soya bean instead.. hehhehe....

The shopping seems fast.... i say nice, Aud buys.. hahhaha..... she spent about 100 odd man... the poor girl at the shop Ruth was mentally "Tortured " by Aud.. hahaha... It just her first day of work and kana such a Auntie and her gang of friends, US... hahahha....

Well, the shopping is nice and so fun...

Thereafter, i went to AMKhub to window shop.. nothing much for myself... so i stepped out... I so craved for a MAc Cone... hahha.... I went over to the Dessert Station at the door of Mac and a nice lady served me.. hehhe... I couldn't wait to pop the Ice-Cream into my mouth... hahaha.... i placed $1.oo coin of the counter and a SMS came, the read my msg and walked off... then i realise i forgotten my change... No i Miao arh... but change is change rite... so i walked back to back auntie... she say she passed me the coin... but there's no coin on me.. i told her dun have... and she said she pass me One Round round one... hmmm... i say i know how it look like.. hahah... but dun have... Aiyah.. then i tell her no need lah... and smile... hehe... then she say, Boy i give you another one... I say no need la, then she was insisting.. then i say NO need... Then she say louder... Boy Come.... then i walked away and waved to her no need no need.. hahah.... So Paiseh...

But my cone caused a buck leh.. hahaha..

fUNNY dAY...

SY can't make up her mind to meet anot.. hahahha... so busy with 10 projects... think she's suffocating there liao.. hahahha.... Poorthing....

A Brand New Week...

The Thunder storm early in the morning just shook me up.... But surprisingly, i was perspiring like crazy... hahha

It was only drizzling when I stepped out of the house. So, I decided to take a stroll in the “rain”… It was cool and misty… and I do miss the times of walking in the rain when I was much younger… No Handphone, no pager, no electronic devices, and just happily walking.. heheheh… But that was so long ago… Now, everything is afraid of water.. hahhaha… your life will be doomed without all the communication gadgets.. hehehe..

I was safe and sound in office… the cool weather just makes me sleepy. Hahahha…. How I wish I can sleep through… I’m one sleepy boi…

Tonight should be a early nite for me… I Hope.. hehehhe….

Happy Boi!!!

Guess what i'll be having for lunch??? KFC!!! heheheh
Auntie packed me KFC for lunch.. heheheh

CoLD.....................

Brrrr.... I'm frezzing in the office!!! I got Ai Xin Bian Dang for lunch today.. mama specially packed food for me so that i got food to eat.. hahha.... Honestly... think I'm really broke.. hahha.... until next week.. heheh... Yesterday, the bank deducted $300/= for my Giro payment... Hahahha.... so tata money!!! heheheh.... Wait till next week ba... :)

So "Chu Cha Dan Fan" for the next few days.... But not really la, my mama's cooking is Very nice.. and i only get to eat home cook food like once or twice a month.... and all my friends like her cooking... hahhaha....

So.... Let's Dig in!!! hehehhe...

Interesting Day!!!

Today, time just flies.... So many things to do... yet, you don't feel tired... isn't it great??? heheheh

Z told me about the NS boi ... hahahha... You Go Girl.... Hope you have a rendezvous time with him... hahhaha..... and hope it will last longer this time...

Today, My Brother was enlisted into NS!!! Heheheh... All the Way Soldier! :)

My headache is back.. hai.... almost fainted yesterday.... i'm not sure what's wrong.. Stress, overworked? dunno.... Tried going for a swim earlier, but end up sitting by the pool, writing songs.. hahhaha... a sad song. :)

你说不想一个人过冬
也不能忘记他的笑容
你说这就像一场梦
梦醒后一切都变空

你希望这不是事实
更不希望他会诚实
你知道这很自私
但不愿意接受事实

So, next up.... Melody.. hahhaha.... But as you can see... Not finished yet lah... hahhaha....


Last week, Marc sent me the song that he recorded for me. Remembering the time when i penned the song, all i think about was God's hand coming to rescue me and save me. Marc told me that one of his friend called the day before and was crying over the phone. He told her whether does she wanna listen to a new song he just recorded. After listening, she commented that she can see God's hand coming to rescue her! (",)

Even if she is the only one who benefitted from the song, it's all worth it! (",)

Busy Busy Day!!!

Ma Jiam a war zone here... hehehhe....

So looking forward to tonight's Chill Out at the Caribbean!!! (",)

I Chanced upon this blog "http://everydayitalian.blogspot.com/ " What an encouragement....

The Discipline of Spiritual Perseverance
Be still, and know that I am God . . . Psalm 46:10
February 22, 2007

This verse takes me to a new place. When life gets crazy and somehow we begin to think we are the center of the universe, this Psalmist puts it into perspective. I am not the center of the universe merely a participant in creation. Chill out, relax, refocus and stop doing, and immediately. For the One whom is above all is in control. In total control. I can continue in my physical efforts or I can choose to align my mind with The Presence so that my actions begin to be natural and flow in the direction He is leading. Before all action, I am learning to be still.

Life is not meant be a struggle. We were created to live life and live it abundantly. When life becomes too "hard" one must evaluate if a change in direction is necessary. Have you ever felt like you were riding a stationary bike? You were working so hard and getting now where? Or perhaps you have viewed life through negative or hopeless lenses. Maybe you are tict off all of the time or maybe depressed. My siblings and my husband like to tease me about a familiar reaction of mine. They call it my default setting. According to those sources, my immediate not necessarily long term response to surprise, to fear, to shock, and to embarrassment is often...shall I say it?... anger. I think it is hilarious that they say that, but it is rather true. Angie's default setting: anger. The "unknown" can cause me to react that way. Isn't the root of anger, fear? My students have recognized my choleric tendencies and define those tendencies as characteristics of personality. Yes, however, what we consider is that personality is not an excuse for disobedience or flawed character. I enjoy knowing, acting and having control of my life so when I'm not feelin it, default: anger. That default setting is a weakness. It is contrary to the life that God has for people. However, the good news is, I am changing! Seriously. What a beautiful year it has been.

Life is meant to be enjoyed, embraced and productive. My dreams can be realized and perseverance to get there is attainable. I can be assured, completely and totally assured that as long as I remain focused mentally and emotionally, God will lead me easily, without a struggle. Creativity emerges. Fear and disappointment cannot exist in that current. I cannot afford to let anything distract me from my goal. You cannot either. There is not a day that goes by that this phrase is not in my consciousness. As a result disappointment, contrary mentalities, opposing teaching, draining relationships, conflicting images , negative thoughts and fear of any kind have no access . I am choosing to be still and know that God is near and He is leading. So my new default setting: Assurance

Chambers Commentary: Perseverance is more than endurance. It is endurance combined with absolute assurance and certainty that what we are looking for is going to happen. Perseverance means more than just hanging on, which may be only exposing our fear of letting go and falling. Perseverance is our supreme effort of refusing to believe that our hero is going to be conquered. Our greatest fear is not that we will be damned, but that somehow Jesus Christ will be defeated. Also, our fear is that the very things our Lord stood for— love, justice, forgiveness, and kindness among men— will not win out in the end and will represent an unattainable goal for us. Then there is the call to spiritual perseverance. A call not to hang on and do nothing, but to work deliberately, knowing with certainty that God will never be defeated.

If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment right now, it simply means that they are being purified. Every hope or dream of the human mind will be fulfilled if it is noble and of God. But one of the greatest stresses in life is the stress of waiting for God. He brings fulfillment, "because you have kept My command to persevere . . ." ( Revelation 3:10 ).

Continue to persevere spiritually.
Do you need to be still?
What is your "default setting?"
What do you do to stay focused and assured?

Yummmmm....

How's this for a Good and Sumpteous Lunch.. hahhaha... Does it make our mouth waters??? Hand Made Noodles at Bendeemer Coffee Shop... Yum Yum...

When Numbness stills your soul

It's not a good feeling, but it's always better then being sad....
Sitting all by myself sets me thinking about what i like and what i don't.... in the coolness of the wind, and the calming feelings of the waters, i study myself all over again.... There's so much that i want to acheive, and so much i want to explore... So many i want to help, and so many problems i want to listen... So many things i want to do, yet without the discipline to make it happen.... So wanting to change, but the process seems slow... so wanting to be effective, and be stretched further....
Maybe this is Stretching.... Feeling the Strain and all, and see how far i can go.... in a period of trial and testing, attitude will be the most important for me to go through. Sometimes, i will just want to shut down. But the rebooting period is not easy.... So i chose not to... All i do is to draw away for a moment and find my air to breathe.... This is the time where i also feel the most vunerable and try to put on a guard... And i might stings and be edgy easily... having a low tolerance level... Ma Jiam having PMS..... In the blurness of mind, i face the danger to do stupid things... so scary.... So must refrain to see the Old self popping out....

After taking a Fresh Breathe will give me the energy to face life and fight life all over again... I realise that having a good rest will give me a greater and better motivation to face life and be charged up all over again.... So LiFE, Here i come again!!! (",)

I'm going to have hair cut tomolo.... And my Bro is going to shave his head in preparation for NS... So, Farewell DIDI's hair, and see you in a month's time!!! mm(>_<)mm

Blogging seems to be a channel to voice out our inner feelings, and also letting others know what you want to express without saying direct. Many will read and make a self-interpretation of what the person is thinking... but sometimes it just feel like a place where i having a pity party for myself... hai.....

So Totally Loved "Music and Lyrics" !!!
Watchin this show in a wet and rainy day.... and almost got soaked... hahahha



Way Back into Love Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end