Happy Birthday To Me....

4th Nov was really the most wonderful day... Though alot of conspiracy hor.... But I'm truely blessed!!!
What I am blessed with...
- Espirit Bag (my colleague)
- IP Zone T-Shirt (CG)
- Beanie Red Bear called Thomas (CHC Choir)
- Skinny Tie (CHC Choir)
- A Sweater that Eileen Loves alot!!! and i mean she likes it alot alot.. hahaha... (CHC Choir)
- V neck T-Shirt (CHC Choir)
- Accessories (CHC Choir)
- Espirit T-Shirt (Jie and Gang)
- Braun-Buffel Wallet (CC Choir)
- Marina Sq Vouchers (CC Choir)
- Beetle Bug Bag (Dialect BV)
- Dinner at Sake (Jen and Na)
- T-shirt from Converse (Jen and Na)
- Topman Credit card (Jen and Na)
- Fox T (Ms Grin and Pete)
- Fox T (Lexx)

But have not gotten my first wish though.. hehehhe.... But i must say, I'M TRUELY BLESSED!

It's MY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahhahaha.... Here's the Schedule for my birthday "celebrations"

1st Nov - CG (Pizzas for CG, with Han Xian's Birthday)
2nd Nov - Dinner with Z
3rd Nov - Waileong's Birthday Lunch, Choir Duty, and Night Prac.
4th Nov - ACTUAL Birthday!!! DAY
- 8am - IC Duty
- 1pm - Chinese Church Duty
- 4pm - Dialect BV Duty
- 7pm - Dialect Prac
- 11pm - Supper (if any)
5th Nov - Dinner with Jen and Nana
6th Nov - SENTOSA!!! Dinner
7th Nov - Singapore Zoological Garden
- Dinner with Gang (place to be confirmed)
8th Nov - CC BBQ

My First Birthday Wish for 4th of Nov!!!

IPod Nano - 8G (",)

Counting Down 1 Month to Aud's Birthday!!!


I had a chance to go out with some Zone members on Sun. After so many weeks of serving in dialect, my mama wants to have dinner with me and my bro... so... i requested for a break to have dinner with them. My Bro Zhao Bing Mai Ma and 9 of us had dinner together... hahhaha..
The Dinner at V8 was fantastic. Thereafter, My bro wanna have Swensens' Ice Cream. And IF you have NOT realize, IT'S My Favorite Dessert Place, YES IT IS!!!

We ordered so desserts drinks, and GIANT EARTHQUAKE shared by me, le, Gr and Mama... ahahha... YUM YUMMmmmmmmmmmmmm

How Many Times we have to cry in a day.

Well... News is out. We'll be together for the next 3 months till we get our own new job. New Environment and new people and all.

It's been a great 3 years with you guys! We'll make our new horizon and do greater things!

It truly make us team player and watching over each other's back. (",) Continue to work hard in these few weeks and months, and achieve something GREATER!!! Woosh woosh!!!

Let's do our Best!!!

Hello.. Been a while ya.. hahha... after so many weeks of trying out for Showcase, i finally decide on a song. WL Vic suggest that I should sing a sad song.. something about me being able to carry out sad song... hahah.... here i go.... heheheh...

Most of you would not have heard this song as this was his very first album before the launch of the album that we heard in Singapore....

爱自己
By: 曹格

说再见 你和我再也不拖不欠
不需要说什么抱歉 不需要说什么怀念
那一天 我的泪流在心里面
不需要让你能看见 不需要让你去可怜

我答应自己 从那天起
心里不再有你 反正我对爱已经放弃
我是真的无能为力

(Chorus)
说爱有什么了不起 说爱我真的不在意
在我的世界里 我早已没有你
说什么爱有什么了不起
说爱我真的不在意 你这样的放弃
没有了你我会爱我自己

没有了你没有关系 心里不再有你 oh...
说过的诺言 已经没有了意义
因为我已不再爱你

说爱有什么了不起 说爱我真的不在意
在我的世界里 我早已没有你
说什么爱有什么了不起 说爱我真的不在意
你这样的放弃 没有了你
我更爱我自己

爱我自己

SUN's US MEdley

NA NA NA NA WANNA KILL BILL
BUT IF I HAVE TO I WILL KILL BILL
IF MR BILL THINK I’M PAY HIS BILLS
HE WANT ME TO COOK AND WASH
HE WANT ME TO SCRUB AND MOP
BUT I’M SITTING ON THE SIDE OF THE BED
CONTEMPLATING SHOULD I SEND HIM TO THE CEMETARY ROCK
I’M SITTING ON THE SIDE OF THE BED
CONTEMPLATING SHOULD I SEND HIM TO THE CEMETARY ROCK

EVERY MORNING
HE WAKES UP FOR BREAKFAST
I’M STILL YAWNING
HE DON’T CARE IF I’M RESTLESS
HE WANNA KNOW
EARLY IN THE MORNING IS THE KIDS IN SCHOOL
DID I MAKE THEIR LUNCHBOX
DID I CLEAN THE POOL
BRING HIM THE PAPER
TURN ON THE COFFEE MAKER
BRING A HOT CUP FOR THE MASTER

BUT THE DAYS OF SUFFERIN ARE OVER
TALKING TO MYSELF I’M LOOKIN IN THE MIRROR
ASKING MYSELF IF HE LOVES YOU
HOW CAN YOUR EYES BE BLACK AND BLUE

NA NA NA NA WANNA KILL BILL
BUT IF I HAVE TO I WILL KILL BILL
IF MR BILL THINK I’M PAY HIS BILLS
HE WANT ME TO COOK AND WASH
HE WANT ME TO SCRUB AND MOP
BUT I’M SITTING ON THE SIDE OF THE BED
CONTEMPLATING SHOULD I SEND HIM TO THE CEMETARY ROCK
I’M SITTING ON THE SIDE OF THE BED
CONTEMPLATING SHOULD I SEND HIM TO THE CEMETARY ROCK

　　LISTENING … GEISHA

ME WA SEE PURE LIGHTA
ALL MY GIRLS XING FEN DE HU HAN
EVERYBODY EVERYBODY
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
MIX THE CHINAWINE WITH THE DUTTY WINE

EVERYBODY CHINAWINE
EVERYBODY CHINAWINE
EVERYBODY CHINAWINE
MIX THE CHINAWINE WITH THE DUTTY WINE

I’LL NEVER FORGET WHEN MY PLANE LANDED IN JAMAICA
IT WAS ME, TONY MATTERHORN, ELEPHANT MAN
AND THE GIRL THAT THEY CALL GEISHA
SHE SAID ZHE YI NIU ZHE YI YAO ZHE YI NIU
I ASKED HER WHAT DOES IT MEAN
SHE SAID IN CHINA WE LOVE THE DUTTY WINE SO MUCH
THAT WE MIX IT WITH THE CHINAWINE

CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
MIX THE CHINAWINE WITH THE DUTTY WINE

CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
I’M A DANCE MY PROBLEMS AWAYS

THROW ON MY DANCING SHOES
I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE
TONIGHT I’M GONNA HIT THE NIGHT LIFE
AND PARTY AWAY

CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
MIX THE CHINAWINE WITH THE DUTTY WINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE

CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
CHINAWINE CHINAWINE
I’M A DANCE MY PROBLEMS AWAYS

Got Your Head On My Shoulder.............

Went for movies with SY and LN yesterday.... SY was having a bad flu... dinner was good at CineLeisure foodcourt... and the show was FANTASTIC!

THE SIMPSONS hit the big screen! It's a crazy must watch show... You practically laugh from beginning to end! HahahahaHAHAHahaha...
Go Watch!!!! With alot of people who can laugh too!!! hahahahhahHAHAHAHhahaha......

I sent SY back in a cab and hit my bed at 10pm... super early.. but had a super good evening. (",)

It's A Girl!!!

26th June 2007 awaits the coming of our little Princess Wen Wen!!!
our beloved Nat has safely delivered to Wen Wen, Our "Ms World" @ 8.45am. Hehehe... Another Xiao Zhu Zhu... hehehhe...

Uncle Tobias took some cheeky photos for her too.. heheheh... Enjoy!

Picture speaks a thousand WorDs?!?!?!?

mY Lunch and Dinner for the Day...

Well.. the day passes very fast.. and it's super cold
Thank God for my Mama's cooking... simple Sweet and Sour Fish, Cabbage Soup with ginger, and Chicken wing... I made in my lunch and Dinner.. hahhaa



The warmth of the Soup keeps me warm and nice..... and now, a cup of Milo..... hahahha

Day by Day, Night by Night.......

Time is truly something that will wait for no man... Suddenly the tot... Don't waste my time...

Over the weekends.. i was approached by various groups of friends for clubbing... hahah... Do I look like a Clubber??? but well.. i was too tired to go too....

Thank God that i did not go... On Sat Night, it was pouring down town when my friends were there... I made a right choice of going Home... But me daddy wanna me to help him fix up his PC... Good Deed done... and i only can sleep at 2am... and i have to wake up at 7am! I gana Shock to find my alarm clock hidden under the pillows by my bro.. and i was almost late... i ran into church hall the moment i alight... and boy... i did not know that one portion of the platform forms the floor area... i ran across like no-body's business... and BANG BANG BANG BANG Across the section... i almost dig a hole and hide... all the ushers were looking at me... i felt dumb at the moment.. hahahha....

I get a chance to lead the Choir... upon talking, challenging, and praying with Choir, i want to see God Move, and See God Touch the people in the Hall (you'll never imagine how bad it had been) The Amazing thing is, God Appeared.. His Presence is So Strong... Fantastic... Glory!!!

Something Frantic happened yesterday... We were all rushing from Expo to Jurong as Uncle Lewis need to fetch MediaCorp artist to Malaysia... i left my phone in his vehicle... and he took off wiht my phone... My darling phone took a trip with the stars to Malaysia and came back to me late at night... i was so so so so lost without my phone.... Sorry darling... i will not "bang seh" you again.... hehehee....

Anyway... Uncle is kind to send it back to me after sending the Artiste back to MediaCorp... hahah... and i have to tip him another $10... anything for my darling to come back to me... heheh...

Tonight, going to K with HX, Hiro and guys... The best thing is everyone stay at North Area... and AMK K box is just a few blocks away... so nice... hahha.... i going off soon.... Take Care World!!!

My God-Aunty's God-Daughter....

So that makes her my God-God-Cousin! Hehehhe

Isn't she just cute....

She Just had her "Full-Moon" At Sun 10th June 2007

Truly, Promotion Comes from the Lord

After toiling for the last few months, the efforts are paying off… (“,) Today I was asked to go into my Boss’ office. During the conversation, I was told that I will be helping out in the Chinese Market, and there will be a 20% pay increment that will take effect from June! Praise the Lord! I believe that everything works according to His timing. I truly Thank Him for His Blessings in My Life! (“,)

What do you do when you are bored???

I tried taking artistic Pictures.. hahaha...



Nice???

My Mama

Mama…
An unsung heroine, a lead actress in my life, who braved through all waves of trials and difficulties, bringing me to where I am today.

Being the eldest son, she’s one inexperienced mama-to-be when she’s carrying me. Thoughts ran in her brain when she found out that she’s pregnant. With the uncertainties of the future, the thought of not having me did zoom pass her mind. But she endured the next 7 months to bring me forth, and the whole family was very happy when they heard “It’s a Boy!!!”

I will never forget an incident that my Granny and Mummy told me. It all happened when I was just a month old. A sudden fever brought the whole family to a frenzy. No one knew what they should do. My mum was in a total lost when I was just crying and crying… and suddenly, I was dead quiet. The baby in her arms starts throwing up a fit. With tears in her eyes, she is totally devastated. In hope that something good may happen, the matter got worse. The baby became blue, lifeless and died. No sign of life, no breathe, and what’s worse, no heartbeat. Tears washed her face. She could not believe that the baby she’s carrying is dead. With wailing that can be heard blocks away, she so not giving up on hope. Rubbing the tiny body, she wants to bring warmth to the body. Granny helped her and starts rubbing the tiny body too… and suddenly a loud cry came from that tiny body. This Cry became the cry of a Woman with hope and a cry of a Woman not giving up.

15 years later, on her birthday, she received a call from my school telling her that her son is kicking up a fit and fainted. The very horrific pictures enter her mind. She was frantic that the worse might happened. Rushing to the school, she saw a boy lying there pale as a sheet. As I woke up, not knowing what I should say, I just said: “Happy Birthday Mum”. I think that tortures her, for she laughed and cried at the same time. She was glad that I was alright, at the same time she’s afraid that what happen 15 years ago might just happened on that day.

Now, a quarter of a century has passed, she’s still the mother who will never give up on Hope. Time and time again, I caused her to worry, and many times upset for doing the things that I should not do to kick off a relapse. But she never complained a little about the trouble I had put her through. With full support and encouragement, she pushes us forward to achieve our dream. She is a self sacrificial woman who puts others before herself. The lesson on Giving as a Lifestyle was taught by her way before I ever stepped foot into church. She’s a great cook who had made many people’s stomach delight, endured my granny to learn all the secret recipes, and always looking out for new method and new taste to cook something to satisfy our taste buds.

Everyone who knows her will know that she’s quiet by nature. But she is one Protector who will face off anyone who dares to accuse her sons of anything that’s not true or try to harm her children. She’s one Mama that anyone will wish for. Till now, I still have a sudden “god-brothers” and “god-sisters”, for her motherly nature embraces those who longs for an embrace. She’s a mother to them all. I’m glad that many others can too experience what I had experienced.

I thank God that life was given to me through her not just once, but twice and many many times!!!

Happy Mothers’ Day Mummy!

What Have I been Doing???

The Presence

I remember saying to D last Sunday that it’s been a long while since we worship together as a Choir. I always took time in CC to gather the people in worship in preparation to minister on stage. God presence always comes… and I know it’s truly His Mercy and His Grace. Yesterday in the prac, B just took some time to worship together with the people attending the prac. It’s Heavenly!!! Thank you God for coming to meet us and minister to us!

There are so many a times that we are just busy ministering, and this is one that you just put away everything and be ministered. The Presence came so strong when B say “Listen to this: Your love, Surrounded me from the start, I never want to be apart, from You ever again"…. I just fell and wept and wept and wept…..

I think I’m one Lazy boi…

Why so? I realize that I’m person who dun like to walk too much in the office. As my office space is not very big from one another, I roll across the room sitting on my wheely chair to get or put something… hahahha… One push and I reach the other corner… Awesome ay… heheh…

My companion for these 2 days is my Trustee Skittles … hahhaha… he’s tasty, yummy, filled with fruity freshness, you just continue putting him in your mouth….
And I got a picture of him too… hehehe





What are you thinking??? Hehhe…

I Kapo my bro’s Ipod as his camp do not allow him to bring it in, so I stuck music to my ears wherever I go… hahhaha.. Sun’s Songs from the new album EMBRACE accompanied me through most of the times.. her melodious voice reached out towards the soul of man and lift them up. The lyrics are so beautifully written and really help to bring comfort to those who listen and listen closely.

Call me Zom Zom…

I one freaking walking zombie …. In lack of oxygen, my face is tensed up and tight like one who just went for Botox.. Hahahaha…. My whole body is numb….. Numb numb….

Yesterday NT bought durians and placed it in the fridge… the “fragrance” lingers in the frigde… when I’m having my breakfast from the fridge, My Chipsmore Cookies and Sara Lee Chocolate Swirl Sponge Cake, each bite contains a taste of Durian…. Imagine this… Durian with Chocolaty Taste.. and/or Chocolate with Duriany Taste…. A little turn off hor… : S

Wow wow wow....

Normally the morning rush is madness... but surprisingly, I get to sit down from AMK to Cityhall, then City hall to Lavender... isn't it amazing??? heheheh.....

But one sad thing....
I'll be attending a wake tonight. My Ex-CGL's dad passed away yesterday... So ya, me and some Ex-CG members, and the ICs will be there tonight....

Happy Boi again... heheheh

I’m so ready to be home and stay at home for most of my free time wef yesterday… hahhaha… why??? Cos I gotten cable at last!!! Yeah…..

Cartoon Network, Disney Channel, AXN.. so on and so forth… hahaha…… Isn’t is amazing??? I’m so going to be a couch potato …. Hahahhaha…. I will not wanna get Fat… so I will still go for my swim (cross fingers) and hopefully gym… hehehhe… So Couchy… Here I come… (after my swim if it didn’t rain) heheheh….

Monday, April 9 2007

It's my Mama's Birthday!!!

I specially took leave to spend this wonderful day with her... hehehe... this day is filled with a mission... to eat and to eat... hahahha...

We set off at noon time, after a good sufficient rest, heheh.... We head down Chinatown to eat the Soy Chicken... we ordered chicken for 2, a Xia Jiao Soup, 1 rice and 1 noodle... and surprisingly, the bill come up to only S$9/= Wow... we then took a train to VIVO to shop around...

We then confirm the dinner location with my bro , Lx, Gr and many others... we head down Plaza Singapura and settle at Manhattan Fish... but while waiting for them.... we are famished.. heheh... So we grab a Chilli-Cheese Fries from Carl's Junior... hehehhe....

The Dinner was superb at Manhattan!!!

Piss...

can't believe i spend time waiting for nothing....
Piss.... no movie.. no show... nothing.....

I Got Involved in an Car Accident today . . .

After a Movie Show “300” which ends at 11 last night, Z decides to send me home with his precious car. But when we reach his block, his brother actually drove it out for supper. So we can only wait for him to come back . . . An hour pass . . . consider driving from Bedok to Tampines is a little long hor. (“,)

When he comes back, we immediately hop into the car and took off PIE and CTE and Back home at AMK. When we are turning right at the cross junction, we did not see any cars in sight . . . and me and my BIG MOUTH … I just say “Turn Lah” and it took him a long while to react. . . can’t blame him, he can be easily distracted, and a Taxi come screeching at my side and bump . . . Thank God it’s only the Front that was slightly dented.

Time Check: 1am in the Morning! Hai.........

Supposedly Sick....


Heheheh... I was at home... suppose to rest.. but somehow, i just could not fall asleep.... Mama bought Ang Ku Kuey from the AMK Nonya Kuey stall at Hougang that was shown on TV yesterday.... Actually not bad wor... only 30cents each... hahaha....

Supposedly an Alone NIght...

I so wanted to go take a plunge in the waters today... all by myself... hahaha... But Aud wanna shop at the new Korean Shopping Mall Square 2 at Novena.. Well.. i had not stepped into the back part of Novena Sq, so i'm not very sure where the place is.... Her persuasive words entices me to go with her and Jo to do some shopping... Without a clue of the exact location, we just walk out of Novena Station.... Hmm.... Novena Sq, Novena Velocity...... step out... Dun have leh.... we cross the road, and once again... and are we there yet???? United Square.... Noooo.....

So we ask the Information Counter guy and he say "at the back of Novena Square, near Tan Tock Seng".... hahahha... OUr Cukooness was written all over our face... The walking makes the girls hungry.. hahahha.... Walk and walk and Walk..... and Tadang... Square 2.... nice place... hehhe... the food court looks good... but a bowl of Snow Ice Fruit Mix is 5.80 wor... mad.. hahah.... so i chose soya bean instead.. hehhehe....

The shopping seems fast.... i say nice, Aud buys.. hahhaha..... she spent about 100 odd man... the poor girl at the shop Ruth was mentally "Tortured " by Aud.. hahaha... It just her first day of work and kana such a Auntie and her gang of friends, US... hahahha....

Well, the shopping is nice and so fun...

Thereafter, i went to AMKhub to window shop.. nothing much for myself... so i stepped out... I so craved for a MAc Cone... hahha.... I went over to the Dessert Station at the door of Mac and a nice lady served me.. hehhe... I couldn't wait to pop the Ice-Cream into my mouth... hahaha.... i placed $1.oo coin of the counter and a SMS came, the read my msg and walked off... then i realise i forgotten my change... No i Miao arh... but change is change rite... so i walked back to back auntie... she say she passed me the coin... but there's no coin on me.. i told her dun have... and she said she pass me One Round round one... hmmm... i say i know how it look like.. hahah... but dun have... Aiyah.. then i tell her no need lah... and smile... hehe... then she say, Boy i give you another one... I say no need la, then she was insisting.. then i say NO need... Then she say louder... Boy Come.... then i walked away and waved to her no need no need.. hahah.... So Paiseh...

But my cone caused a buck leh.. hahaha..

fUNNY dAY...

SY can't make up her mind to meet anot.. hahahha... so busy with 10 projects... think she's suffocating there liao.. hahahha.... Poorthing....

A Brand New Week...

The Thunder storm early in the morning just shook me up.... But surprisingly, i was perspiring like crazy... hahha

It was only drizzling when I stepped out of the house. So, I decided to take a stroll in the “rain”… It was cool and misty… and I do miss the times of walking in the rain when I was much younger… No Handphone, no pager, no electronic devices, and just happily walking.. heheheh… But that was so long ago… Now, everything is afraid of water.. hahhaha… your life will be doomed without all the communication gadgets.. hehehe..

I was safe and sound in office… the cool weather just makes me sleepy. Hahahha…. How I wish I can sleep through… I’m one sleepy boi…

Tonight should be a early nite for me… I Hope.. hehehhe….

Happy Boi!!!

Guess what i'll be having for lunch??? KFC!!! heheheh
Auntie packed me KFC for lunch.. heheheh

CoLD.....................

Brrrr.... I'm frezzing in the office!!! I got Ai Xin Bian Dang for lunch today.. mama specially packed food for me so that i got food to eat.. hahha.... Honestly... think I'm really broke.. hahha.... until next week.. heheh... Yesterday, the bank deducted $300/= for my Giro payment... Hahahha.... so tata money!!! heheheh.... Wait till next week ba... :)

So "Chu Cha Dan Fan" for the next few days.... But not really la, my mama's cooking is Very nice.. and i only get to eat home cook food like once or twice a month.... and all my friends like her cooking... hahhaha....

So.... Let's Dig in!!! hehehhe...

Interesting Day!!!

Today, time just flies.... So many things to do... yet, you don't feel tired... isn't it great??? heheheh

Z told me about the NS boi ... hahahha... You Go Girl.... Hope you have a rendezvous time with him... hahhaha..... and hope it will last longer this time...

Today, My Brother was enlisted into NS!!! Heheheh... All the Way Soldier! :)

My headache is back.. hai.... almost fainted yesterday.... i'm not sure what's wrong.. Stress, overworked? dunno.... Tried going for a swim earlier, but end up sitting by the pool, writing songs.. hahhaha... a sad song. :)

你说不想一个人过冬
也不能忘记他的笑容
你说这就像一场梦
梦醒后一切都变空

你希望这不是事实
更不希望他会诚实
你知道这很自私
但不愿意接受事实

So, next up.... Melody.. hahhaha.... But as you can see... Not finished yet lah... hahhaha....


Last week, Marc sent me the song that he recorded for me. Remembering the time when i penned the song, all i think about was God's hand coming to rescue me and save me. Marc told me that one of his friend called the day before and was crying over the phone. He told her whether does she wanna listen to a new song he just recorded. After listening, she commented that she can see God's hand coming to rescue her! (",)

Even if she is the only one who benefitted from the song, it's all worth it! (",)

Busy Busy Day!!!

Ma Jiam a war zone here... hehehhe....

So looking forward to tonight's Chill Out at the Caribbean!!! (",)

I Chanced upon this blog "http://everydayitalian.blogspot.com/ " What an encouragement....

The Discipline of Spiritual Perseverance
Be still, and know that I am God . . . Psalm 46:10
February 22, 2007

This verse takes me to a new place. When life gets crazy and somehow we begin to think we are the center of the universe, this Psalmist puts it into perspective. I am not the center of the universe merely a participant in creation. Chill out, relax, refocus and stop doing, and immediately. For the One whom is above all is in control. In total control. I can continue in my physical efforts or I can choose to align my mind with The Presence so that my actions begin to be natural and flow in the direction He is leading. Before all action, I am learning to be still.

Life is not meant be a struggle. We were created to live life and live it abundantly. When life becomes too "hard" one must evaluate if a change in direction is necessary. Have you ever felt like you were riding a stationary bike? You were working so hard and getting now where? Or perhaps you have viewed life through negative or hopeless lenses. Maybe you are tict off all of the time or maybe depressed. My siblings and my husband like to tease me about a familiar reaction of mine. They call it my default setting. According to those sources, my immediate not necessarily long term response to surprise, to fear, to shock, and to embarrassment is often...shall I say it?... anger. I think it is hilarious that they say that, but it is rather true. Angie's default setting: anger. The "unknown" can cause me to react that way. Isn't the root of anger, fear? My students have recognized my choleric tendencies and define those tendencies as characteristics of personality. Yes, however, what we consider is that personality is not an excuse for disobedience or flawed character. I enjoy knowing, acting and having control of my life so when I'm not feelin it, default: anger. That default setting is a weakness. It is contrary to the life that God has for people. However, the good news is, I am changing! Seriously. What a beautiful year it has been.

Life is meant to be enjoyed, embraced and productive. My dreams can be realized and perseverance to get there is attainable. I can be assured, completely and totally assured that as long as I remain focused mentally and emotionally, God will lead me easily, without a struggle. Creativity emerges. Fear and disappointment cannot exist in that current. I cannot afford to let anything distract me from my goal. You cannot either. There is not a day that goes by that this phrase is not in my consciousness. As a result disappointment, contrary mentalities, opposing teaching, draining relationships, conflicting images , negative thoughts and fear of any kind have no access . I am choosing to be still and know that God is near and He is leading. So my new default setting: Assurance

Chambers Commentary: Perseverance is more than endurance. It is endurance combined with absolute assurance and certainty that what we are looking for is going to happen. Perseverance means more than just hanging on, which may be only exposing our fear of letting go and falling. Perseverance is our supreme effort of refusing to believe that our hero is going to be conquered. Our greatest fear is not that we will be damned, but that somehow Jesus Christ will be defeated. Also, our fear is that the very things our Lord stood for— love, justice, forgiveness, and kindness among men— will not win out in the end and will represent an unattainable goal for us. Then there is the call to spiritual perseverance. A call not to hang on and do nothing, but to work deliberately, knowing with certainty that God will never be defeated.

If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment right now, it simply means that they are being purified. Every hope or dream of the human mind will be fulfilled if it is noble and of God. But one of the greatest stresses in life is the stress of waiting for God. He brings fulfillment, "because you have kept My command to persevere . . ." ( Revelation 3:10 ).

Continue to persevere spiritually.
Do you need to be still?
What is your "default setting?"
What do you do to stay focused and assured?

Yummmmm....

How's this for a Good and Sumpteous Lunch.. hahhaha... Does it make our mouth waters??? Hand Made Noodles at Bendeemer Coffee Shop... Yum Yum...

When Numbness stills your soul

It's not a good feeling, but it's always better then being sad....
Sitting all by myself sets me thinking about what i like and what i don't.... in the coolness of the wind, and the calming feelings of the waters, i study myself all over again.... There's so much that i want to acheive, and so much i want to explore... So many i want to help, and so many problems i want to listen... So many things i want to do, yet without the discipline to make it happen.... So wanting to change, but the process seems slow... so wanting to be effective, and be stretched further....
Maybe this is Stretching.... Feeling the Strain and all, and see how far i can go.... in a period of trial and testing, attitude will be the most important for me to go through. Sometimes, i will just want to shut down. But the rebooting period is not easy.... So i chose not to... All i do is to draw away for a moment and find my air to breathe.... This is the time where i also feel the most vunerable and try to put on a guard... And i might stings and be edgy easily... having a low tolerance level... Ma Jiam having PMS..... In the blurness of mind, i face the danger to do stupid things... so scary.... So must refrain to see the Old self popping out....

After taking a Fresh Breathe will give me the energy to face life and fight life all over again... I realise that having a good rest will give me a greater and better motivation to face life and be charged up all over again.... So LiFE, Here i come again!!! (",)

I'm going to have hair cut tomolo.... And my Bro is going to shave his head in preparation for NS... So, Farewell DIDI's hair, and see you in a month's time!!! mm(>_<)mm

Blogging seems to be a channel to voice out our inner feelings, and also letting others know what you want to express without saying direct. Many will read and make a self-interpretation of what the person is thinking... but sometimes it just feel like a place where i having a pity party for myself... hai.....

So Totally Loved "Music and Lyrics" !!!
Watchin this show in a wet and rainy day.... and almost got soaked... hahahha



Way Back into Love Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

A Joke to Cheer your Spirit Up!!! (",)

A man was sitting on the edge of the bed, observing his wife, looking at herself in the mirror. Since her birthday was not far off he asked what she'd like to have for her Birthday.

"I'd like to be six again", she replied, still looking in the mirror.

On the morning of her Birthday, he arose early, made her a nice big bowl of Lucky Charms, and then took her to Six Flags theme park. What a day!
He put her on every ride in the park; the Death Slide, the Wall of Fear, the Screaming Monster Roller Coaster, everything there was.
Five hours later they staggered out of the theme park. Her head wa s reeling and her stomach felt upside down.

He then took her to a McDonald's where he ordered her a Happy Meal with extra fries and a chocolate shake.

Then it was off to a movie, popcorn, a soda pop, and her favorite candy, M&M's. What a fabulous adventure! Finally she wobbled home with her husband and collapsed into bed exhausted. He leaned over his wife with a big smile and lovingl y asked, "Well Dear, what was it like being six again??"

Her eyes slowly opened and her expression suddenly changed. "I meant my dress size, you imbecile!"

The moral of the story: Even when a man is listening, he is gonna get it wrong.

Surprising......

I only manage to fall asleep around 1.30am this morning after a long toss and turn in bed.... and TaDang.... I actually can wake up at 7am, buy breakfast for my colleague and come in to the office... hehehe.... Not late leh... :)

What was i doing so late?
I had BBQ steamboat with my choir members, in a gesture of to spending time with Jos before he enters NS... We were negotiating the pricing with the Auntie...
"$12... Auntie $10 lah, we got 8 people leh.... Cannot lah... Economy not good, things not cheap... $12 lah.... Then we go... $10 lah.... ok ok, $11.... then we like.. okie lor.... " hahhahaha..... But while we were walking over, i saw jas walking in too.. hahhaha.... She shouted "KOR" hahahha... then she and her gang of another 8.... hahahha... Then we turn to Auntie...."Auntie.... 16 people leh.... Auntie...." and she charge us $10 each... hahhaha.... Cheap hor... hahahha...

After getting tired of the food, and indulging in 3 Ice-Cream... we head down AMK at 10.30pm, supposedly to K... but AMK K-box closes at 2am... so, they decided to go Cineleisure to K till 6am... I surrender.... Got Work tomolo leh!!! and so, i went home instead.. hehehhe.... While waiting for JY at AMK, we went to Funland to play arcade games... hahahha.... Though the place is only one carpark away from my house, i had not stepped into the place for years... hahhaha... and i actually enjoyed myself with some of the crazy games.. and we had a race of Daytona.... hahhaha... So all things end off in a high for me, and the rest of the 5 people were singing till dawn.... i heard from them at 8 am saying that they are still at Bugis Mac... Super man and woman arh.... hahahaha

I'm So Blessed!!!

Am i Blessed or what??? hehehhe... Auntie packed me a Huge Pack of Yong Tou Foo with Bee Hoon... Hahahhaha.... Thanks Auntie!!! I so Enjoy food as you can see in most of my entries... hahahha....
Makan All the Way!!!

Marking a Day to Remember!!!

To me, this is one special day!!! Our CG had a wonderful time together today!!!

Trying all the food at Geylang, and enjoying each other's companion... (",)

We ordered Tim Sum at HE JI... So much so much food!!! hahahha.... there we gave also Kel our best regards and a gift before he enters NS this thurs... Must Use the Conditional when your hair grows arh.. hehehhe.... Thereafter we walked down Geylang and ate Durian.... The same place I've been to with my previous CG... The Durians are HUGE!!! hahahah... The gals are enjoying the Queen of Fruits Mangosteen, while the Guys feast in the King of Fruits Durian.. hahhaha... Dex was challenged to eat the durian... hahhaha... you should see his face... Ten Thousands of "Don't Wants"... but he ate it anyway.. heeheee... Then we walked all the way to Paya Lebar for a round of Pool. I must say, I REALLY Enjoyed Myself today!!! Thank You GUys!!!

The Choir people are meeting at the Mac at the Gardens again... (all because of me) cos i stay opposite there mah.... hahhaha... We had a round of Heart Attack and i really having a heart attack.. hehhee... I'm feeling giddy and fainty... Tired and worn-out.... The truth or dare session really cause us to make alot of noise and laughter next to a group of students who are burying themselves in their books, studying for their papers... Sorry Guys.... But Study Hard K!!! heheh.... After 2 rounds of Uno, I head home... (",) Just in time to enter this entry before this day ends... :)

It's such a fruitful day for me. (",) Thanks for Everything guys!!!

hAHHAHA.... Do You know that drinks in cartons bottles have an expiry date and it indicate time... hahhaha... my friend spotted it, and ask me to finish it before it really expire. When is the Expiry date?? 09/03/07 17:40.... NOW.... hahhahaha.....

It's A Brand New Day!!!

I woke up at 7am in morning in hunger.... Hahhaha.... (",) Must be the medication that i'm consuming... boy.. it makes me hungry... hahhaha... I think I'm getting fat... again... hahhaa...

Giddy Giddy....

I'm so singing Kylie's "I'm Spinning around..." and "I just can't get you out of my head"... hahahha... My condition is not improving for the last 2 days... i was on MC yesterday, and today, the head is just spinning all over again... hai........... ... i'm glad that i received regards from my choir members... so amazing isn't it...

EARTHQUAKE!!!!

There was a Tremor that just happened... hehehhe.. so interesting... you can see the pictures on the wall moving too.. Woooo.... This is the first time i witness an Earthquake tremor in Singapore... Interesting!!!

POUNDING HEADACHE!!!

After going out for lunch yesterday, MY HEAD is Pounding non-stop... ARRRRHHHHHH......
First attempt to book tickets over the net (Mountain Tortise hor.. hahhahaha).. anyway, gotten 9 tickets for DreamGirls, 7.30pm Show at The Cathay.

See the Magic of so many tickets... heheh


I loved the movie, but the Headache is super irritating!!! I almost fainted at the bus-stop... Gosh....

I dive straight to bed the moment i reached home.

This Morning was really a struggle... If it's not for the shipment today, i would had taken a MC... My Head, My Head... hahhaha....

Breakfast of the Day!!!

This is my favorite Breakfast for a bright and Sunny Day!!! Shines On!!! I received 8 songs for Jo Yesterday. He wants to submit the songs for the song writing... Hearing him sing makes the song so heartfelt and it's very nice. Keep it up yeah!!!

Frozen Pudding

In the coldness of the brand new month, rain kept pouring and cold air blows... When the pudding that you want to eat froze up in the coldness of the freezer, each bite numbs the teeth that sunk deep into it...

How is my heart today? Good, I guess... nothing is affecting me, and all i want is to enjoy every moment i have. The past i place behind, and the future I behold... What's going to happen no one knows, but one thing for sure, I'm in it. (",)

Last day of the month of Valentine's....

I changed my blog skin... The washing out of a heart by the waves of the sea.... Nice? (",)

Justin's heart seems to shut down... bad things dun seems to affect him, and all he can do is just to laugh... Emotionally he shuts himself down... Tobias wants to cheer him up, but he just laughed.... smiled and laughed... Is something wrong? He do not know....

He wanted to cry, but tears just hid away... as it whelds up... his face still have a smile on... his eyes were not red. He just subpressed it... he died to the saddness... As his face betrayed that he was faking... he turned away for a moment and turned back... The smile seems real and convincing. Tobias knows that it kills him on the inside, but he wouldn't admit that he is... As he walks, Tobias stayed close to him... and he sits down, Tobias wants to hug him tight... as he tries to sleep, Tobias watched him and saw that his eyes were wide opened... Tobias accompanied him... without a sound, without a touch... silently, assuring... just being there for him...

Let it be he said... Just let it be.... as he slips into a sound sleep as Tobias stays close to him and watched him....

While the long holiday has affected me quite badly.... i guess my momentum is coming back... heheheh... Yesterday, was Elaine's and Terence's ROM. Both where my two different ex-CG members. So interesting to witness their ROM. :)

Happy Birthday Gab!!!

Auntie packed my favorite Vegetarian Fried Bee Hoon for breakfast... but the moment i stepped into the office, i don't have time to sit down on my chair for more then 30secs... hahahha... i only manage to start eating at 10.30am... hahaha... and start busying again... the whole packed was finally finished up at 11.30... hahhaha.... Busy Morning... (",)

Had A Company Lunch at Chef Chan!!! :)

I only like the Chicken... hahhaha.... Crispy on the outside, tender on the inside... :)
Yum yum....





The Place looks very Chi-Na.. :) But nice ambiance.....
We took a group photo today, and O My Gosh…. I Look FAT!!! I think the good food over the Chinese New Year is depositing it’s fats onto my face… and I gain 2 kg over this one week.. hahhaha…. Well, Shao Ye Ming… hahahha…. Eat and No Play make Tobias a Fat Boy!!! But nono.. cannot be fat…. MUST Slim down once again… hahaha… Jiayou!!! Cannot be a Pig in this year of the Pig.. hahahha…

Had CharKuay (Fried Carrot Cake for breakfast) hehehhe... Yum Yum....

The whole day has been very slow paced... considering most of the customers has not start work and boy... it's really very quiet.... Have to go full force next week!!! It was really a drag to work after so many days of off... heheh... but the thought of having a company lunch tomorrow makes me look forward to it... hehehe....

I went to have a swim at the evening time... must start working out liao.. hahaha.... in quiet pool, i was just spending time with God and talking to Him, and Singing.... and suddenly a song rises... I was happily humming the tune... and as the wind began to blow stronger, i head towards the toilet to hide inside the changing area, take out my pen and notebook and started writing down the lyrics... a short voice recording was done to help me remember the tune... Off to the showers and head home.

I had Myojo Mee for dinner... with 2 scramble egg, i am a happy boy... hahahaha... Chris was so serious about the survey that he asked me for the last few days, and called me when i was having an important call. He said the lines like a expert promoter... hahhahah... and i have to reject him as i was in the middle of a discussion. So... Ya, i have to call him back later. And Yes, i called him back.. hahha... He always try to get me at the wrong time... ("/) hahhaha

Well.. Tomorrow.... food.... hahahha... sleep liao, awaiting tomorrow's coming. :)

First Day of Work after So Many Off Days.... Hahhaha...
I had a 6 days break due to the Chinese New Year and Pre-Festive Preparation... Boy... How did I Spend Those days???

Let's See....

15th Feb 2007

16th Feb 2007 -
JY's Birthday!!! I'm went to the Zoo Zoo Zoo!!! How about you you You???
Hehhehe...

17th Feb 2007

18th Feb 2007

19th Feb 2007

20th Feb 2007

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let Love Fills the Air!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When love fills the air, it’s a wonderful feeling to know that you are remembered by your close friends and those around you. Hehehe…. I’ve made roses for my colleagues and boy are they surprised… hehehe… a deep purple rose, symbolize independence, royalty and ermmm…. gay… hahhaa… nah…. Just the first 2. Aud will be having her Vday night at Night Safari… So lomatic…. For myself… shopping at City Hall and Bugis… hahahha…. I’ve not gotten my New Year clothing… yap….

I met Jos at City Hall to get my shoe… I saw Koichi (Eugene) outside Funan, and I asked him along for my shoe shopping. (“,) in my mind, I wanted a Puma Shoe, but when I reached the shoe shop, I just try out one shoe and bought it… then when I stepped out, I was like…. Why did I buy an Adidas??? Hahahha… But I like it a lot too… so Puma have to wait… hahahha

We met up Jo at Bugis… looking to and fro, I only manage to get a belt and hand socks… hahhaha…. We head off to United Sq to meet up the rest of the group, and we went to Prata House for Dinner… and that was like 10plus liao.. (“,) I was famished. Very Very VERY HUNGRY…. I gobble down my food with great speed, topping each piece with lots of Sugar…. Yum yum… hahhaha… My Stomach bloated after the pieces of Prata… Very VERY Full … A good nice meal… but super fattening… hahhaha… But well… anything for GOOD FOOD!!! Heheheh…. So how romantic this Valentine’s Day is??? A Good Time with those who are always around you!!! (“,)

To those attached, Happy Valentine’s Day!!!

To those Single, Happy Friendship Day!!!

Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaccccccckkkksssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was a Cashew Munching Day for me. I practically finished half BIG bottle of Cashews.. hahhaha,,,,, must drink more water, if not sure hang there for Chinese New Year Week end.

Last night, went shopping with Aud @ Paragon. She was so mesmerized by the Max-Studio Shoe… it’s only $200… She can’t decide whether to get it or not… But we KIV it for the moment cos I was rushing to meet Jen. A quick stop-by at Mont-Blanc and Dunhill to look for gift… and my eyes was fixed on a Dunhill shoe… it’s so SO SO SO SO SO nice… and it cost Only $700… ya… ONLY $700/=. Hahahahaha Only…. Hur hur hur…. If I buy that, you will see all the grass and flowers outside Paragon all gone. It’ll all be eaten by me. Hahahha… “Jia Chao”. We Head off to Far East to do some serious shopping cos I’ve not done my CNY shopping. No new clothes for the season. So off we go…. And hai…. Mostly girls shop… hahhaha… good for the girls and bad for the only guy me. I was so tempted to buy a gal’s top cos it look so unisex. And exactly the cut I’m looking for. The guys cut is all to baggy and loose, making me look so Sloppy. So No no… at the last minute, we entered a shop, a guy guy shop. And Walah, the piece I’m looking for. Got It. Try it and Ta-Dang… Bought it. Once again, a full set, top and bottom from the same store. (“,)

Last week, I heard news that my god-granny was hospitalize due to a mild stroke. I visited her with my mummy and bro… She looks bored sitting there all by herself. So our presence really perk her up.. hehehe… and I gave her a rose that I made. Nothing fancy, but truly from the heart.. (“,) She will be transferring to AMK Hospital for therapy session. So my mum will be going there more often to visit her. So I need to apply a day leave on Thursday to do the necessary cleaning up and stuff.

Chinese New Year is around the corner. My house is open for Visitation. But must prepare your heart. No Big Ang Baos, but you’ll have lots and lots and LOTS of food. Home cooked delicacies. So come with an empty stomach and eat all you can. For those who had tried my mama’s cooking, I guess you must be drooling now.. hahhaha…. Just Ring me and let me know when you coming. (“,)

So from me and my whole family, here’s wishing you

新 年 快 乐， 万 事 如 以。

心 想 事 成， 财 源 滚 滚 来！！！

恭 喜 恭 喜

Happy New Year 2007!!!!

though it's 9 days late... but still, HAPPY NEw YEar!!!
Been a busy busy weeksssssssssss... hahhaha.... What I enjoy the most in 2006 is the last dinner at Grin's House.... Wow, the Food Is FANASTIC... heheh.... Salmon, Stew.. and wine.... Yum yum...
We had a round of Taboo with Pe, Te and gang.. So brain working on the last day of the year!!! hahaha...

We had our countdown at Mt. Faber, and slurpping our milkshake at The Hill Bistro... :) My Chocolate Freckles is Thick, creamy, and Simply HEavenly!!! Wowowo... heheheh...

1st Jan 2007
I attended a wedding and funeral wake on the 1st day of the year. Then meet up Be and friend for tea. And guess what, i saw alot of friends on that few hours.. hahahha... stopping and greeting every once in a while.. hahaha.. they mst had been very patience while i chatty chatty with my friends... hahahah... I went to St. James with Gr, Le and Pe. And Fabulous was on that night. so that mean, ya, aj nite... Hahahha... so many of them, and guess what, i too saw alot of my friends... hahahha... How big is my circle anyway??? hehehe..... We dance thru the nite, the DJ spun my fav songs, and boogie boogie i did... hehehe... Fun, but tiring... it was just simply Fun.

2nd Jan 2007
Went swimming in the morning to catch the sun to toast myself a little... heheheh... My mama was asking me out after that... Cos i have not accompanied her since Christmas... time to do some mother and son catching up.. hehehhe... We went down, Orchard, just to walk a while and head towards Bishan. I gotten my sports undies there.. HAhahaha...

and the 3rd, Well.... WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and that's where it all begins. ............ hehee................

today, the 9th, i'm attending another wake. I hope that Ke is doing alright. His granny is very close to him. Be strong ya!